Just a little over a week ago and it was the start of a new year. I was filled with the hope and promise of a new start. I read so many advice columns on how to make your resolutions, and some on why not to make them. I read of choosing just one word, a three word phrase, one bible verse, but now a week into it and I just feel lost.
One word,three words, one bible verse or a whole chapter of them and I have just languished in a state of seemingly permanent dysfunction, despair and feeling that my heart is in a vise and just can’t get free.
I was having a brief feeling of bouncing back from my six week battle with pneumonia and arthritis in the hips and back. One week of almost feeling “normal” and after a week of trying to gain a degree of activity, I woke up early this morning with a return of the pain in my hips. It just makes me feel so old and comfort seems a distant stranger.
I am longing for do over, a mulligan, a new start to the same year. Can we start over again…en theos ††† j
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Hang in there my friend, it will get better.
Thanx Bryan, I know it will but while my rational logic brain tells me that… en theos……jim
Have you read Practicing the Presence of God by brother Lawrence? It talks about constantly making new starts being the best way. It is one of the greatest books I have ever read! http://www.amazon.com/The-Practice-Presence-Brother-Lawrence/dp/0989312046/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1389223756&sr=8-1&keywords=practicing+the+presence+of+god
Rachel………thanx for the recomendation….I will check it out. I have read so much trying to lift myself and I have my doubts that any book is going to fix all my stuff…..en theos……j